while i was taking a bath earlier well actually whenever i am taking a bath it’s like the perfect time for me to ponder things that occur in my roller coaster life i always come to think about stuff that i did wrong orrrr positive things like yeyyy it’s a new dayyyy i must be productive which apparently are on the opposite ends of a fine line buuuut mostly i think about stupidity moronity imbecility (if in that case there are such terms) that i did or in a futuristic sense, will do. I. Am. Such. And. Embarassing. Person. I don’t know if it’s in my genes or something but jeez hoooo i cant stop myself from talking shit sense out of people and pointing out hey dude you are such a bitch/moron/and the like. I like pointing out other people’s mistakes while here i am a person of flaws and stuff. I have been mean to a lot of people especially behind their backs and i am admitting that i have judgeddd half the people i know. Yes i am judgmental and it’s a proof enough to say that ive been hard on most people i knew. I always remember this one time oh boy nooo maaaaaany times when i sort of displayed my blabbering mouth to my followers(or non) in twitter during brawls looool i think my asking for forgiveness is for deserving people and to this certain guy you’re an asshole i shouldve listened to my mom and my friends i havent said enough of all the words i shouldve been saying to you but you are one downright a-hole and i dont really wish you happiness because of all the pain and bad luck u broughtto my life. But just this time i forgive not you but myself and for God and for my love and for peace. I am sorry i am sorry because i trusted you for a long time and i defended you for two and a half fucking years i lost everything i just hope you will not show up and say hey, how are you not because i still have feelings for you or anything like that but because i am really really really happy with my life right now and i dont wnt you to mess it up. Just take care of your life. Go fuck yourself. Lol ok and as for my friends i am trying to mke it up to you guys sorry for all my shortcomings sorry if i judged you sorry if i lose track of time not minding you guys are still there sorry if i am a bitch at times orrrr autistic most times but always know that i am here to defend you to laugh with you and not at you thank you for making me happy though sometimes you are the reason i am sad but it’s okay friendships have ups and downs. As for my love i love you and you know that nothing and no one can ever ruin us. I have vmbeen hard on you but knw that i love you dearly. The point of this post was for everyone that i have shouted at or made-”sungit” at or backstabbed or insulted and mocked, i am sooooooo sorry truly deeply sorry i am not perfect well nobody is but people deserve to change and make changes for themselves and others and this is me i want to change, for real. So that’s all adios!! xx






